Hiatus and meme

[the_ex_in_xp]

So I've been sporadic in the past week or so because life has generally been full of things, and it probably won't clear up until the end of the first week of August. Or later, depending on how moving and internet transferring works out... So I'm going to be on hiatus until that's over.

However, I still want to engage in some kind of CFUD related stuff, which means question meme time! Ask me about relationships, future plans for CR, anything you want and I'll ask you stuff in return. If you don't have anything to ask still comment! Because I may need distractions and I WILL GIVE YOU A SURPRISE. I don't know what it is even, that is why it would be an awesome surprise...

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sorry my internet refused to work a week after moving like a boss

[the_ex_in_xp]

There's some new stuff that I will just hide in the wall of text for the SOTU for Ramona, since Breeze's fight is still doing some major overhauling of her life

Soooo Ramona has sort of accidentally positioned herself to having her back against the wall in regards to dealing with what's waiting for her at home. Part of it is Roxie, part of it is Breeze, part of it is that part of her conscience that tries to remind her not to suck as a person when it's not suspiciously quiet, but essentially she's gotten to the point where has to think about dealing with camp and also dealing with the stuff after camp. Which she doesn't want to do! Because sucky circumstances! Gideon is the final boss! Extensive self-awareness issues that need confronting!

Essentially Brianna asking to stay with her is making Ramona realize she needs to do that unfortunate confronting of issues. Because before when she was telling Brianna "yeah I wouldn't leave my world, there's stuff there" and Roxie asked her to leave, Ramona said no to leaving but not exactly yes to going back to her world and dealing with things. There was always the option to welch out and leave. And she knows that, but even though she told Brianna no about coming back with her, the part where she said "I can make you change your mind" was a sign that made Ramona sigh and realize maybe she'd have to stand firm in going back to her world. She's still not exactly jumping up for Brianna to stay because, uh, awful role model who can't take care of anybody?? But even when she's not saying yes she's still kind of making mental notes to find some fold out couch on Craigslist or food stuff and NO THAT DOESN'T MEAN YES OKAY JUST :/

Ironically, even though Brianna's really making her try to be sure about going back to her world, Roxie is the one making it difficult. Because if Ramona happened to tell Brianna "so you can stay with my world but how would you feel about living on the lam and skipping around to lots of places, fun huh?" Brianna's reaction would probably be a lot more positive to doing it than Roxie. Because Roxie is all "blah blah running away disapproving faces blah" and the hardest thing isn't going back, but going back...to deal with Gideon. Because Roxie basically gave an ultimatum of if they go back she fights Gideon. And Ramona doesn't want that because she's afraid Gideon might not just kill her but has the ability wipe out everything that Roxie became in camp, someone Ramona fell in love with, and into someone who hates Ramona, since that happened in camp with movie!Roxy so she doesn't want a repeat. And, yeah, okay secondly she's afraid Gideon might kill her.

So Ramona said she'd fight Gideon. And she really doesn't want to. At all. 1) she's 95% sure she's not capable of beating him. 2) she really doesn't want to fight him because she's still kind of in love with him and not proud of it but feelings shut up 3) if she loses it's going to be probably going to be some weird unwanted cryogenic freezing because Gideon has a Thing about keeping all his toys intact 4) even if she wins that doesn't mean life gets easier. 5) training is hard :<

This isn't changing her reaction much in regards to everything, but she is training more even though it feels more like a hollow gesture than really leveling up. That was why she was willing to try and smack Breeze with a bat/get smacked by her in a sparring match before, not only because of training but also because this is making her a little bit more prone to fighting and surliness than being patient and letting it go. She's probably going to slip more into bad habits she usually kept in check, sort of a pay off for training more and buckling down, but for the most part she's trying her best to seem totally normal and fine and hoping nobody will notice it. Which is why she's going to try and hang out with Brianna more since her girlfriend leaving sucks and she wants to reaffirm the reasons why she's going through all this shit to be responsible and whatever.

WHICH TOTALLY MEANS we should do a camping and/or subspace spying post sometime, and you should tell me what Brianna did/is doing in the meantime because I missed a lot but I saw you and Red Arrow talking so I know there's more shenanigans afoot.

IT'S COOL moving is the worst o9"

[fayzedandconfused]

oh lord /TRIES TO REMEMBER ALL OF BREEZE'S BAD DECISIONS LATELY

She wasn't going to go to the soiree thing because of Mindy being gone, but then Jade was like "no, you should go!" so she ended up going despite herself and ended up dancing with Jack and basically being an asshole to him and they haven't talked since then. :( She also fought with Jade about God or something, but at least that argument was based on an actual reason and not just Breeze being like "My girlfriend left! Validate me by being my rebound makeout partner!" #breezelife

She did talk to Red Arrow and told him she died, and he mentioned that he knew Ramona was counseling her in June, so Breeze is kind of like "lol I know she was bitching about that," but she's not really mad about it or anything because she would bitch about having to counsel herself too. :I So it's probably not something she'd pursue talking about with Ramona.

UHH what else mostly she's been hanging around Irene, which is awful, but she doesn't know it's awful, because Irene is always validating her feelings and making her feel good about herself. They made a secret plan to have Breeze fight off a monster in front of people so she'll seem important! Irene told Breeze that killing herself in Camp is a great experiment!! And Irene sneakily made Breeze feel like crap about the whole "I ASKED IF I COULD GO TO SOMEONE'S WORLD AND SHE SAID NO" thing by flat out saying that Ramona doesn't care about her, whoops, while at the same time she nudged Breeze further away from going to Fringeverse by saying that Breeze needs more freedom than that world could give her. ... SO UH yeah that relationship is a thing/trainwreck waiting to happen.

But yes! I'd love to do a post sometime. :> THINGS SHOULD HAPPEN.