[Sometime during AU week]

[the_ex_in_xp]

[meanwhile at the dorms, a half-pirate and some girl who managed a +3 lockpicking skill in her bag of tricks are trying to break in to "their" room]

This lock is way more sophisticated than the others. You'd think they were worried about unsavory people trying to break in...

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[the_ex_in_excessive]

[... fuck okay so it turns out when you get to hear the thing you've wanted to hear again for a couple years now it maybe maybe maybe can result in actual tears being shed, so she's trying to find the best possible way of hiding that as best she can. Probably pulling in close again and resting her head against yours??]

... thanks. That means a lot to me...

[the_ex_in_xp]

[shifting so her shoulder is prime settling in material, running her hand through your hair and trying valiantly to ignore she's made you cry...again, way to go Ramona Flowers]

I should've said it more often.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

[IT'S HAPPY CRYING OKAY]

Well, I'm not gonna act like I wouldn't have liked that a lot.

But, I mean, I knew...

[the_ex_in_xp]

That's because you never have to worry about ruining your reputation as an aloof badass. Unless we're talking your alternate roller derby self...

[IT'S STILL CRYING AND THAT MAKES TELLING YOU THINGS HARD especially when some of it makes her want to cry all on its own]

...I don't know if I can love you like she loves her. I didn't even think I was capable of that until today... But I care about you, Roxie. And I don't know how I can show you that in a way that's good for you, but I'm willing to try.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

[okay, drying her eyes with her coat sleeve and sniffling a little but she's still visibly smiling so there]

That's all I want. Seriously, that's... whatever I thought I wanted before, that was wrong and dumb. I'm just glad we actually got to talk about it, finally...

[the_ex_in_xp]

[well great, now that I am all teary eyed too, we match]

Sorry, communication skills are on the list of things I'm bad at. But I suck less when it's letter writing...

[the_ex_in_excessive]

[laughing in that sheepish, self-conscious way she does when she knows she's getting super-earnest, even for her]

That's good. God, is it lame if I'm really, really excited about the letters?

[the_ex_in_xp]

A little, but your ideas of letters involve care packages and bread. It's kind of extreme, but in an excitement worthy way.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

Yeah, but it's not like I'm expecting fresh bread back or anything. I can just get all dorky and excited over the envelopes or whatever...

[the_ex_in_xp]

Envelopes, really? I think stamp collectors would be saying you need to improve your dorky enthusiasm game.

...but I'll send you stuff. Maybe dumb tourist trinkets you can use to decorate your office or whatever.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

Well, I mean, seeing the envelope from someone I care about in the mail. Not, like, envelopes in general, that'd be weird.

And I'd love that! I'd definitely decorate my desk with them.

[the_ex_in_xp]

[rolling her eyes fondly at "that'd be weird" because, yes, let's draw the line there]

So I guess that leaves out any sharp weapons any anything with humor not safe for work.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

Oh, I don't know, I have a desk at home too...

[the_ex_in_xp]

So...you're encouraging me to send you questionable stuff, just not at your work address?

[the_ex_in_excessive]

I just don't want you to not send whatever you want to send.

Though, I mean, you know me and what I like...

[the_ex_in_xp]

For the most part. I do have a history of introducing you to new things that sounded good in theory and then in practice involved more stitches and food poisoning.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

True. But that's also part of what I love about you. So maybe I shouldn't be imposing any restrictions?

[the_ex_in_xp]

You can always impose them later. As long as you let me hear the story about what went terribly wrong.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

I wouldn't dream of denying you that, sweetie.

[the_ex_in_xp]

[her lips twitch up a little at the "sweetie" but schools it back]

I'll send you a long distance phone card in case. For details and yelling at me in a way that isn't writing in all caps.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

Well, now I'm almost a little worried about what you might be thinking of.

[the_ex_in_xp]

I'd have to see where I ended up before I got any ideas. So don't worry too much yet.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

... so not Toronto, then?

[the_ex_in_xp]

[this is definitely not the time to mention how she and Scott have been in a rough patch]

Toronto's a big city, it has a lot of weird places to choose from. But I've been thinking of taking some time off to go somewhere else.

[the_ex_in_excessive]

[you would get lots of consoling hugs? but yes perhaps not]

Oh. Hm. Maybe the west coast?