[Subconscious Diving, the Gratuitous Sequel]

[the_ex_in_xp]

[from the most dangerous question ever asked, good thing you can't see nineteen-year-old Ramona's expression looks like she just agreed to step on a landmine]

...do you mean like...as a girl to boy thing or, like, as a dating thing in general?

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[the_ex_in_xp]

You can ask me either way, I just wanted some kind of weirdness measure.

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

Right. It's just. Let's say hypothetically you do a lot of stupid stuff that sort of makes life more difficult for someone you really care about, okay? How do you... I don't know, make up for that? Make it better, I guess.

[the_ex_in_xp]

...you're asking me this?

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I mean, it's hypothetical and all, so...

[the_ex_in_xp]

[that incredulous pause was more related to you asking her about this is like asking an earthworm for flying tips but...]

Okay. Hypothetically, uh, trying to undo the stupid stuff you did or at least fix it, whatever it hypothetically may be.

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

[yeah, she knows. But Roxie can hypothetically have ideas on what good things to do would be and still never ever do them herself, so she figured it'd be worth a shot.]

... yeah, that makes sense. I'll have to keep that in mind. Thanks, Ramona.

[the_ex_in_xp]

[rubs the back of her neck self-consciously]

If this is somehow related to that sweatshirt I ruined, I swear I was always going to replace it. I was just waiting for the Black Friday sales, it's in my closet and everything.

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

[kissing you on the cheek]

It's not you, hon, I promise. But thanks.

[the_ex_in_xp]

[doesn't look convinced about that at all, but takes the opportunity to give Roxie "look I am not going to vanish because you turned around" real hug]

Well, I know how important it is for you to have at least eight different hoodies to cycle through.

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

[hugging back and taking a moment to think]

That was like one my warmest ones, too.

[the_ex_in_xp]

I'm sorry, okay? Look, the one I got you is super thick and stuff.

[Walks over to her closet and opens it up, reaching for a lump on the top shelf. Of course, she doesn't notice how there is a very Narnia-looking portal in her closet, but it's kind of hard to miss for you. So she comes back with a wool-lined charcoal grey sweatshirt.

1. Check out the closet right now because you wanted to deal with things
2. Ignore it for now because that would look extra weird and this is probably the last/only opportunity to spend time with Ramona like this]

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

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It looks great. Hey, can I try it on?

[the_ex_in_xp]

Sure. It may be a little big though.

[and you know it's because, even after ruining one the last time she borrowed Roxie's stuff, Ramona liked to swipe the sweatshirts that fit her comfortably, so this was partially self-serving

and when she hands it over you can see that she swiped this one a lot, memories of hanging out in the back rows of her classes with the hood slightly pulled down and inhaling the smell of Roxie's black hair dye and shampoo]

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

That's cool, big's fine.

[slipping out of her own hoodie and putting this one on and letting those memories process for a moment]

... it's comfortable. Look okay?

[the_ex_in_xp]

[tugging at the sleeves to see how it hangs on her]

Yeah, you look very college artist but not like those emo ones.

[and cute, but that one she will just leave silent because you can't prove she's thinking it]

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

[I'm not cute I'm totally badass and fearsome and dammit don't make me think like college me more than I have to :|]

Good. I need more stuff like that.

... so hey, tell me about work. Anything happen?

[the_ex_in_xp]

[shhhhh acceptance of cuteness gets more touchy feely moments

and looks a little surprised she's asking but shrugs]

They started us on the Christmas rush, so I've had to help print out safety fliers about how to identify irradiated eggnog. Stuff you learn while not in class, huh?

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

Wow, really? So are you an expert on identifying irradiated eggnog now or what?

[the_ex_in_xp]

I'm at least an informed consultant. And printing up the ads two weeks in advance meant I got a sneak peek of the Black Friday deals, so you can't knock it.

[tugs on your sweatshirt front for emphasis]

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

Should've sent them to me, I would have made requests.

[the_ex_in_xp]

That would defeat my whole plan of making it a surprise.

[of course you already know what you got for your sophomore year Christmas presents, so you also know Ramona's hit and miss record]

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

... you did some early Christmas shopping, I take it.

[the_ex_in_xp]

Black Friday is officially on time, but yes. So you can ignore any questionable lumps under my bed, thanks.

[lesbeserious.livejournal.com]

... well for me it's early, at least. Which means I should probably get my shit together and start thinking about what I'm getting for you, huh?

[the_ex_in_xp]

Don't worry about it. It's not like it's a big thing you need to plan for, and we didn't really do official holiday stuff before. But I was already there and stuff was on sale and there you go.